dear diary

year 2009 is ending soon.
its sort of a tedious year as many things had went on in this year. its really a tedious year.. a lot. meeting loads of people who changed my life, and spending loads of money, and i felt that i've grown a little through these, hopefully?
well, there aren't many things that i've done in this year.
i only remembered doing loads and loads of projects and reports, all school works. moving, playing, all all sort of randoms..

2010 is coming soon, and i have some new year resolutions:
1) good health and absolute happiness of all individuals
2) all ice creams to show keen improvements in their studies
3) FREEDOM!
4) world peace
the list is not exhaustive thou.. haahah! im greedy!

hmm.. i wanna go countdown with him! but.. i just dont know if my mummy allow or not.. really hope that she allows. i really wished to go!

goodbyes to 2009, and hello to 2010!

gosh
i am getting fatter and fatter!
how am i going to slim down when i am tempted with so many delights?!
T.T
i am getting so fat that even myself start to feel hopeless abt it..
im a fatso...
>.<
help me help me!
i need to lose pounds!!

anw, just to update my activity on xmas, i didnt went clubbing nor k due to poor health conditions.. T.T such a waste! didnt get alcoholic drink as well.. i didnt go shopping with friends T.T didnt blurt out what i wanted T.T
hadnt had a great xmas..
went to IKEA with family instead, and spent about 300 bucks =.= so sian k? i am just randoming ard when my friends are all having fun!! >.<
and at midnight, my aunt's friend brought pizza up for us as supper. actually is ok, but MIDNIGHT! lol. was watching absolute bf while eating pizza. absolute bf very niceeee (=
and slept at ard 2.45am..
=.=

and today, my aunt brought us to bottle tree and we ate there. woahh! spent 113 bucks just on some dishes, which includes omlette, vege, sotong, fish and crab!! xD see lah? how am i going to slim down lah? =.=''

sian. i am feeling rotten now. my troat is killing me. and my coughing is getting worser.. and my skin is getting from bad to worse.. >.< i am going to die soon.. i cant even speak properly without breaking my voice. and it hurts whenever i speak.. haiz.... =.=
wondering how i am going to survive on mon?

just for ur info, its 2.44am now and i still dont want to sleep. i need to wake up by 7.30am later.. =.='' i know i should go now, but i think im suffering from insomnia..

its gonna be christmas again!
...
i want to get myself a pair of earing, and i saving up ^ ^
but i think, from how well i know myself, i might end up spending everything again xD
actually, im rather contented with what i have for now already but..theres something i'd always want: freedom.

i want to enjoy myself this christmas!!
i want to go clubbing!
i want to get alcoholic drink!
i want to be as drunk as possible!
but, i dont think possible lea.. cause my sis and i arent feeling well, so my mom wont allow us to go out.. >.<''
i want to go shopping with our classmates.. T.T
i want to go clubbing T.T
hopefully i can blurt out what i really want after im drunk, but, like what weichiang says, there are only 2 consequences:
1) mom's consent
2) home 'tutorial' and its the end of everything.
in my case, (2) is much possible.. T.T
so..to take the risk or not?
better not i think..
T.T

rightz, merry xmas to all!

recently fell in love with this song: sign-BEG
thou its some sort of dance song, its quite sad..

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/34274/brown-eyed-girls/sign.html

sumi gapa mayday dot~
mami apa mayday dot~
shiganeun tto tic toc
heulroman ga tic toc
teulrini nae sign sign dot~

english translation:
cant breathe, its a mayday dot~
heart hurts, its a mayday dot~
time goes tic toc
and flies by tic toc
can you hear my sign sign dot~

please just look at me for one last time
i once shined but now i am different
and i couldnt say anything

its me, the one who's crying like a fool
im in the dark room all day and all night and its not alright
why cant you understand my heart?

my heart tightens as time passes
my eyes squeezing tears out
im scared tt this is the end, so please save me

Do you know how I feel and I've confessed countless times
And the love sign I gave you. Did you get my sign? sign?
I need you to get back up. Without you I have worry syndrome.
Don't neglect me, I want you by my side, side

Your memories within me and I hold my breath and endure it.
Please, you know I will crumble without you

Shivering lips and my heart which won't last much
And I'm too scared that it might stop, so please save me.

please save me..

hehehehehe..finally! its the end of CTs liaos...
im free!!! (doing 'free' labour the first thing after CTs..isnt tt great?)
and i finally can enjoy!!!
things to do when i get home: PLAY! SLEEP!
i've quit my computer for a week already! (well, actually, for those who knows me, im online sometimes lah hahahaha)
and im seriously lack of sleep ='(
blahblahblah (=

thou holiday, still have many work to do..so no slacking -.-
(as if i will keep my promise?)

i wanted to get a part time job soon.
but its difficult to find one tt only wants to hire 2 weeks.

actually, the CTs, i have no confidence in any at all..
snq still ok lah..
preservation is a die..
biotech no need say -.-
processing still okok lah..
amtd is worst!
i conclude tt i wont pass this CTs...

hate myself hate myself...
why am i so stupid? =.=

我不明白，为什么一点点小误会既然会变成这样？
朋友，只不过是场小误会，别让这种误会把我们的友谊给摇晃了！
不值得，不值得啊！

dear diary,
actually, i dont really know what is happening to me these days. i was just like a walking zombie..i dont know what i am doing, and i dont even know what i am thinking about.

ok.. i am so sorry to my friends.
i admit i was very emotional this morning, and i dont feel like talking much.
i was feeling very unwell during break, and feel like vomitting. though it usually happen to me this semester, i dont know why the feeling today is so strong that i cant really tarhan. i even have to force myself to control.
a bowl of noodle in front of me, and i harldy touched it. okay. i know that i dont know how to take care of myself. later my gastric pain again, its my own fault..
then also dont know what i am thinking about, i went to lock my phone. it ended up locked, but i dont know how to unlock -.-''. so we went to causeway point and asked singtel to unlock my phone. i was happy already, then i itchy hand went to lock again, and end up have to go and ask for help again..lol. so, thats how i spent my afternoon.. =(

felt that i might fall ill very soon. body abit warm warm de, then headache and dizzy.. =(

you know, it hurts me when i saw you in such a pain..

today went out after school with our classmates to watch new moon. we caught the 1pm de, but mr tay.. -.-'' you all know lar harh..always like to 'hold us back' one.. so was kind of 'late' for the movie, but at least didnt miss the starting..
bought nachos combo. the nachos was like -.-'' nt as good as last time i had them..but nvm (=
jessie wasnt feeling very well today thou. take cares!

woahh! had been waititng for the launch of this movie to S'pore for so long lah!! and now finally!!
uh. i felt tt the characters in twilight looks better ehh haaha xD. and i prefer the edward cullen in the book rather than the one in the movie..
hmm. there hasnt been really much appearance of jacob in the movie as compared to the book thou..but its ok! cos i like edward better. edward is so handsome xD
overall, the movie was nice(= but the book was nicer hahah.

actually i was sitting beside zinc and peggy de, but dk why they changed my seat with wc, and i ended up sitting with sumi and jr. ahh! i know already. cos maybe is wc wanna sit with rf, tts why.. (=
after the movie, actually we all planned to go for lunch cum high tea de, but peggy was in a rush to go for her piano lesson, so she and zinc left. i wanna follow them de, but they dont allow me to go. they wanted me to go lunch instead -.-'' am i such a light bulb to disturb the romance of the two of you? lol.. anw, i still had a chance to leave after they left haha. so i didnt go makan with the rest..

overall, the trip was a pleasant one. had fun and enjoyed my day today =)
hopes all enjoyed their day as well =D

dear diary

year 2009 is ending soon.
its sort of a tedious year as many things had went on in this year. its really a tedious year.. a lot. meeting loads of people who changed my life, and spending loads of money, and i felt that i've grown a little through these, hopefully?
well, there aren't many things that i've done in this year.
i only remembered doing loads and loads of projects and reports, all school works. moving, playing, all all sort of randoms..

2010 is coming soon, and i have some new year resolutions:
1) good health and absolute happiness of all individuals
2) all ice creams to show keen improvements in their studies
3) FREEDOM!
4) world peace
the list is not exhaustive thou.. haahah! im greedy!

hmm.. i wanna go countdown with him! but.. i just dont know if my mummy allow or not.. really hope that she allows. i really wished to go!

goodbyes to 2009, and hello to 2010!

gosh
i am getting fatter and fatter!
how am i going to slim down when i am tempted with so many delights?!
T.T
i am getting so fat that even myself start to feel hopeless abt it..
im a fatso...
>.<
help me help me!
i need to lose pounds!!

anw, just to update my activity on xmas, i didnt went clubbing nor k due to poor health conditions.. T.T such a waste! didnt get alcoholic drink as well.. i didnt go shopping with friends T.T didnt blurt out what i wanted T.T
hadnt had a great xmas..
went to IKEA with family instead, and spent about 300 bucks =.= so sian k? i am just randoming ard when my friends are all having fun!! >.<
and at midnight, my aunt's friend brought pizza up for us as supper. actually is ok, but MIDNIGHT! lol. was watching absolute bf while eating pizza. absolute bf very niceeee (=
and slept at ard 2.45am..
=.=

and today, my aunt brought us to bottle tree and we ate there. woahh! spent 113 bucks just on some dishes, which includes omlette, vege, sotong, fish and crab!! xD see lah? how am i going to slim down lah? =.=''

sian. i am feeling rotten now. my troat is killing me. and my coughing is getting worser.. and my skin is getting from bad to worse.. >.< i am going to die soon.. i cant even speak properly without breaking my voice. and it hurts whenever i speak.. haiz.... =.=
wondering how i am going to survive on mon?

just for ur info, its 2.44am now and i still dont want to sleep. i need to wake up by 7.30am later.. =.='' i know i should go now, but i think im suffering from insomnia..

its gonna be christmas again!
...
i want to get myself a pair of earing, and i saving up ^ ^
but i think, from how well i know myself, i might end up spending everything again xD
actually, im rather contented with what i have for now already but..theres something i'd always want: freedom.

i want to enjoy myself this christmas!!
i want to go clubbing!
i want to get alcoholic drink!
i want to be as drunk as possible!
but, i dont think possible lea.. cause my sis and i arent feeling well, so my mom wont allow us to go out.. >.<''
i want to go shopping with our classmates.. T.T
i want to go clubbing T.T
hopefully i can blurt out what i really want after im drunk, but, like what weichiang says, there are only 2 consequences:
1) mom's consent
2) home 'tutorial' and its the end of everything.
in my case, (2) is much possible.. T.T
so..to take the risk or not?
better not i think..
T.T

rightz, merry xmas to all!

recently fell in love with this song: sign-BEG
thou its some sort of dance song, its quite sad..

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/34274/brown-eyed-girls/sign.html

sumi gapa mayday dot~
mami apa mayday dot~
shiganeun tto tic toc
heulroman ga tic toc
teulrini nae sign sign dot~

english translation:
cant breathe, its a mayday dot~
heart hurts, its a mayday dot~
time goes tic toc
and flies by tic toc
can you hear my sign sign dot~

please just look at me for one last time
i once shined but now i am different
and i couldnt say anything

its me, the one who's crying like a fool
im in the dark room all day and all night and its not alright
why cant you understand my heart?

my heart tightens as time passes
my eyes squeezing tears out
im scared tt this is the end, so please save me

Do you know how I feel and I've confessed countless times
And the love sign I gave you. Did you get my sign? sign?
I need you to get back up. Without you I have worry syndrome.
Don't neglect me, I want you by my side, side

Your memories within me and I hold my breath and endure it.
Please, you know I will crumble without you

Shivering lips and my heart which won't last much
And I'm too scared that it might stop, so please save me.

please save me..

hehehehehe..finally! its the end of CTs liaos...
im free!!! (doing 'free' labour the first thing after CTs..isnt tt great?)
and i finally can enjoy!!!
things to do when i get home: PLAY! SLEEP!
i've quit my computer for a week already! (well, actually, for those who knows me, im online sometimes lah hahahaha)
and im seriously lack of sleep ='(
blahblahblah (=

thou holiday, still have many work to do..so no slacking -.-
(as if i will keep my promise?)

i wanted to get a part time job soon.
but its difficult to find one tt only wants to hire 2 weeks.

actually, the CTs, i have no confidence in any at all..
snq still ok lah..
preservation is a die..
biotech no need say -.-
processing still okok lah..
amtd is worst!
i conclude tt i wont pass this CTs...

hate myself hate myself...
why am i so stupid? =.=

我不明白，为什么一点点小误会既然会变成这样？
朋友，只不过是场小误会，别让这种误会把我们的友谊给摇晃了！
不值得，不值得啊！

dear diary,
actually, i dont really know what is happening to me these days. i was just like a walking zombie..i dont know what i am doing, and i dont even know what i am thinking about.

ok.. i am so sorry to my friends.
i admit i was very emotional this morning, and i dont feel like talking much.
i was feeling very unwell during break, and feel like vomitting. though it usually happen to me this semester, i dont know why the feeling today is so strong that i cant really tarhan. i even have to force myself to control.
a bowl of noodle in front of me, and i harldy touched it. okay. i know that i dont know how to take care of myself. later my gastric pain again, its my own fault..
then also dont know what i am thinking about, i went to lock my phone. it ended up locked, but i dont know how to unlock -.-''. so we went to causeway point and asked singtel to unlock my phone. i was happy already, then i itchy hand went to lock again, and end up have to go and ask for help again..lol. so, thats how i spent my afternoon.. =(

felt that i might fall ill very soon. body abit warm warm de, then headache and dizzy.. =(

you know, it hurts me when i saw you in such a pain..

today went out after school with our classmates to watch new moon. we caught the 1pm de, but mr tay.. -.-'' you all know lar harh..always like to 'hold us back' one.. so was kind of 'late' for the movie, but at least didnt miss the starting..
bought nachos combo. the nachos was like -.-'' nt as good as last time i had them..but nvm (=
jessie wasnt feeling very well today thou. take cares!

woahh! had been waititng for the launch of this movie to S'pore for so long lah!! and now finally!!
uh. i felt tt the characters in twilight looks better ehh haaha xD. and i prefer the edward cullen in the book rather than the one in the movie..
hmm. there hasnt been really much appearance of jacob in the movie as compared to the book thou..but its ok! cos i like edward better. edward is so handsome xD
overall, the movie was nice(= but the book was nicer hahah.

actually i was sitting beside zinc and peggy de, but dk why they changed my seat with wc, and i ended up sitting with sumi and jr. ahh! i know already. cos maybe is wc wanna sit with rf, tts why.. (=
after the movie, actually we all planned to go for lunch cum high tea de, but peggy was in a rush to go for her piano lesson, so she and zinc left. i wanna follow them de, but they dont allow me to go. they wanted me to go lunch instead -.-'' am i such a light bulb to disturb the romance of the two of you? lol.. anw, i still had a chance to leave after they left haha. so i didnt go makan with the rest..

overall, the trip was a pleasant one. had fun and enjoyed my day today =)
hopes all enjoyed their day as well =D